Following on from yesterday

Am, I ready to be ME?????????? YES I AM!!!!!!! It basically comes down to what I want and not anyone else can drive that. Yesterday I was going to go to the gym with friends, and then they rang to say that they couldn't go......did I go on my own cos I wanted to.......NO!!!!!!!!!! We arranged to go today instead, so I rang this morning, and something has come up for them, and they can't go................ am I going to let that stop me going? NO!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am doing this for ME!!!!!!! I am the only one who can do this for me, I can't do it for you, like you can't do it for me. 

I have been watching videos alot over the last couple of days, mainly on you tube of people like Rosemary (from yesterday's post) and Miss Janie.......I also went back and rewatched a few of my own videos, which made me sad, as even back in April 2009, I was struggling:- sure that was before my diagnosis of my auto immune liver disease. 

So, I am going to do this for ME, and I will not quit, I will keep going, no matter how long it takes, and I will live for ME everyday, and I will celebrate ME, the ME I am today, not the ME I think I want to be. If I honor who I am today, and live for ME today, then I will succeed!!!!!

Here is a clip from Miss Janie about regain. The bit that really gets me is towards the end, where she asks:

"what is it that YOU want, not what anyone else wants or what anyone else thinks is right, WHAT do YOU want, what is going to make you happy?"

So what do I want? I want to be healthier, which actually means doing that......not just saying I want it, but following through with the choices I make for ME. It means cutting back the carbs, drinking the water, getting in some exercise and getting out and living, instead of sitting back on the couch just watching life go past. I am going to get out there and participate in life again!!!!!!! I somehow lost the want to participate. But I have found it again. It means posting more, it means putting more videos up but more importantly it is about living life for ME and what I want!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Are you ready to be YOU?

The following is a video from Gastric Rose. It made me cry. She is now about 7 years post op from her Gastric Bypass and she is amazing!!!!!

Today she asked the question : Are you ready to be YOU?
Well are you ready to stop comparing yourself to others and their journey, or their body shape,their exercise regime, their health, etc etc etc - or are you ready to accept you for who and where you are and to move and YOUR pace, eating the things that work for YOU. 

So there you are, I am ready to move forward on MY journey, and it will take as long as it takes. I am going to move at the gym at least 3 times per week and I have to accept that my body does not like Gluten, even though I try and push those limits. I know that I need to stop looking at everyone elses journey, and just concentrate on my own. For me that is a big part of why I separated out my Facebook friends, as sometimes it is easy to look at what everyone else is doing and forget about what I need on MY journey. 

Would love some feedback on what you thought of Roses video. 
 

This is so true

Thanks to my friend Tim for posting this. At the end of the day that is the reality for all things we do. 


Enough said

Another Lunch Box - More Protein

Yesterday's lunchbox was great but I either did not have enough protein for breakfast, or there was not enough in the lunch itself as I was so hungry by around 4pm. I was on a late start and finish yesterday so didn't get home to cook dinner till around 7:30pm so ate late last night. 

So I have upped the protein in the lunchbox today. Here it is 

It is a home made Gluten Free Scotch Egg in the clear container,
Yellow - Mixed bean and feta salad
Blue - Shaved ham
Red - cut up gerkins
Green - 1 cut up Kiwifruit. 

I have the kiwifruit and the gerkhins at morning and afternoon tea. Today will be a very rushed lunch that I will most likely eat at my desk as I have to go to my specialist appointment. I have not been happy with my blood test results, but yesterday they decided to play the game and dropped dramatically. May be that the stress of the conference organising is almost over. 

Today is also my Friday at work, so looking forward to being off and doing the last minute things before the weekend. 


Off to work now, hugs. Janine

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An Idea taken from Eggface

I have been following a blogger in the WLS world for some time, Her name is Michlelle Vicari, and her blog is The World According to Eggface and she has some amazing ideas. One of the things she often does is posts her lunchbox and the contents. I think this helps make her more accountable. 



Anyway I decided to do it today and I could really see that what I was having and that I was getting in a good variety without overdoing anything. 

Here is my lunch for today! (including a couple of snacks)


Blue box - kiwifruit
Green - 3 slices shaved ham 
Red - 5 slices cucumber and 1 hardboiled egg
Yellow - 2 but up gerkhins
clear - salad, with radish, cucumber, yellow pepper and feta.


So there you have it - lunch today. 

Okay so home, and just had dinner, although I have to say I don't think I had enough protein for breakfast as I was so hungry I demolished the above before lunchtime. 

Came home and opted for a high protein meal of homemade Gluten Free Scotch eggs and a mixed bean with Feta Salad. (even the coating is GF -it is a Rice Based coating) I think I will be taking a Scotch Egg for lunch tomorrow.

Tomorrow sees me at my last day of work for the week and then I have the prep for the conference on Wednesday and Thursday before Katie arrives at 5pm. I know I have a hair appointment at 9am on Wed and I was thinking about getting my nails done as well. I also have an appointment with Simon at lunchtime on Wednesday, otherwise I will be at home working on the presentation for Sunday, and getting the final details done for the conference.

I WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I won the award for Favourite International WLS Personality!!! So cool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I even wrote and acceptance speech, which was read out on the Bariatric TV Post Awards Radio Show. 

Thanks to Diva Taunia for organising the awards and to the whole of the community who have embraced this chick from New Zealand, who to most of you probably speaks way to fast and has a funny accent.

Through Diva Taunia, the guys at BTV, and so many of you in the you tube community, you inspired me to stand up and be vocal about my own journey, and to bring more support and resources to New Zealand. Since getting to know you all, I am about to pull off the second Weight Loss Surgery Conference in New Zealand, and none of that would have happened if I had not stumbled across this wonderful community.

I have not been able to meet any of you in person yet, but I know that I will someday when I can finally afford to get to the Meet & Greets in Las Vegas. If any of you ever want to come to New Zealand my home will always be open to anyone from our wonderful community.

Thanks again, I am humbled and I wish I could be with you.

Things are a bit frantic here this week. I have heaps to do with the conference, and Katie Jay is just about on her way. I am expecting a text from her in about 5 hours to tell me she is on the way to the airport. I just can't believe the next time I speak  to her, she will be in Rotorua!!!!and I still hve to wait till Thursday 17th to finally meet her. 

Well must head to bed so I can get through tomorrow and Friday, then the weekend will be busy with conference stuff as well as getting the back yard ready for the Annual Harris Christmas party which is being held at my house for about 60 of my relatives on Dec 3rd. Man, I can't wait till Dec 5th to actually relax, although I think that is the day I have scheduled to start at Jetts gym, which have kindly given 3 gym memberships to me to give away at the conference. 

Will update some more around the conference time, especially with some photos.

I just don't get it

Doing everything most things right and I go up in weight to 118.4 kgs.......I so don't get my body!!!!!!

The only thing I have not really managed to do this week is to get the water intake in, and do as much exercise as I had hoped, but I did get some in. I am so not sure what is going on, but I will keep going, as if I give up, It would just pile on!!

Anyway, off to get more done on the conference organising, getting to the final couple of weeks now. I only have two full weeks at work. Katie will arrive on Nov 11th and I am so looking forward to being able to spend some time with her.

Have a fantabulous day!!!!!

Track your progress.....

So here I am tracking my progress, I wasn't going to do it, but then I picked up Katie Jays Small Bites book, and Today's topic is just that.....Track your progress. 

So I thought I had better. 

So over the last couple of days, since I posted about getting back on track, I have actually 95% of the time stuck to it. I had a couple of rice cookies on Tuesday night and yesterday was on track. 

My water consumption is still too low and the exercise is just not happening. But small steps as they say and certainly in the right direction and I have done my typical drop 600 gms already, but now it will most likely stay that way for  the rest of the week, which usually gets me down, and then I fall off track. But, I am not going to do that!!!!!

Things are coming together nicely for the conference. I can't believe Katie arrives in New Zealand in just over two weeks!!!!! So, if you are waiting to register!!!!!!! DO IT!!!!!!!!!

Restarts today

Yup - I am restarting today, healthy eating and getting back 100% on track.

My boss pointed out to me on Friday that I have told her I have gained weight but that I think that I will only lose a portion of it..........she asked me why I think that, as surely if I put my mind to it I can do anything!!!!!!!!

So today, back 100% on track with both Gluten Free and with my WLS eating plan, the water and the cutting out the junk. I will also be back on track with exercise soon, just working on that plan. 

Anyway, this morning, 

Pills taken, 
1 cup of tea with milk and sweetener (not sugar)
About to head to work for the day, Protein shake at around 10:30, and then lunch at 2pm, which will be 1 orange, 2 corn thins and a small can of tuna with lemon pepper. 

I will have my calcium


Dinner when I get home will be 

Beef Hot pot casserole (in the slow cooker now) 
Maybe a little mashed potatoe (but just a little)



And I will get my water intake in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


There is only downwards from 117.5 kgs (this mornings weight)

So here it is.....drumrolls not needed

My weight is sitting at 116.8 kgs as at this morning. Now this is just soooooooooo not acceptable, considering I got down to 101 kgs before getting sick with my Auto Immune Liver Disease. 

Sure, I am still on immune suppressants and steroids, but that doesn't account for the garbage I have been putting in. So I am getting back on that train......actually I am concentrating for the moment being Gluten Free and trying to reduce carbs. (having much more protein)

I tried a recipe that Lynda had on her blog, a pizza base that is made from cauliflower and it is not bad. I don't think I cooked it at quite the right temperature as it did not really go crispy, but certainly it was fine, and you get so much more flavour from the toppings as it is not over powered by the bread. I had chicken and bacon on mine. 


The other thing I am having is cauliflower rice.....(the first stage of the pizza) instead of regular rice when it comes to curries etc. We had it tonight, I didn't miss the rice at all!!!!!!!!!! I did still have one poppadoum, but as it is made from Lentil flour, it is fine for me.


I am planning on getting out and moving more, nothing drastic, just using what is around me, ie the footpath and walking tracks around here and if it is wet then and old WW DVD I have. I am going to be trying to record what I am doing daily....not adding calories or anything, just making me more aware, and if I  gain or stay the same I can look back at it . 

So today was a bit of a mixed bag as I made cheesecake for dessert


Breakfast 
Eat Me Protein Shake with yoghurt and milk


Morning tea
Two Wheat Free Rice Cookies 


Lunch 
1 small can of lemon pepper tuna
2 corn thins
1 kiwifruit 
1 pear


Afternoon Tea
Two Wheat Free Rice Cookies

Dinner
Chicken, chickpea and lentil Curry
1 poppadom
2 tablespoons of rice cauliflower
1 small piece of raspberry cheesecake made with GF biscuits
1 tablespoon of low fat boysenberry ice-cream
1 handful of salted potato chips
1 coke zero can 
1 small glass of grape juice. 


Now I have major hiccups and I am off to bed. Waiting for my you  tube video to post, but it won't be ready till the morning. So good night, and happy dreams. !!