Sunday, October 9, 2016


I have been meaning to update for sometime, but always think about it at 3am when I can't sleep.

I am up in Palmerston for the weekend, staying with Simons Mum. I try and come up once a month and spend some time with her and we go to a movie, or watch a DVD, go shopping,  have lunch etc. So last night, we went to the movies to see Bridget Jones Baby, which was really good. I am a little bit of a Patrick Dempsey fan, so was a great way of spending some time.

I got my usual movie ice cream (choc nut) and Simon's Mum got popcorn, medium as she thought I might like some as well. So I did what I would always mum to hold my ice cream after I had taken it out of its little plastic/paper bag, whilst I filled the said bag up with popcorn. I do this so I limit the amount of popcorn I eat, but more importantly so I can dip my ice cream into the popcorn and eat the popcorn off the ice cream. Of course you only get to this stage once you have bitten all the chocolate and nuts off around the outside.............anyway, that is all going to plan, and Mum seemed perplexed as she had never heard of ANYONE dipping their ice cream into popcorn before. Before I could answer, a lady in the row ahead did just that. Licked her ice cream, then shoved it into popcorn and bit those bits get both salty and sweet all in one delicious swoop. You get my point, it is yummy. !!  Whilst I was enjoying mine, I noticed a couple of things.

Most people in the theatre, either had no food/popcorn/ice cream/snacks/drinks and a few had popcorn and a drink and others just had a ice cream. Not many had the ice cream, popcorn and drink combo I had going on. I then noticed that the only people who had the whole kit and kaboodle were those of us who were dipping our ice cream into our popcorn, and then washing it down with a soft drink (albeit zero/diet variety). There were 3 of us that I could see in my range of vision. Here's the kicker..................all 3 of us who were dipping ice cream into popcorn, had one other thing in common. MORBID OBESITY. I almost cried before the movie even began as I realised how out of control I am and even then in that utter sadness, I still finished both my ice cream, and my popcorn, and yes it was still together.

So, now to move forward..........I need to think, strategise and action if I am going to get well.

Sunday, May 29, 2016


so from my last post I found the treadmill hard to use for more than 5 mins, I looked back to my time at u-kinetics, and the exercise I did the most was the Exercycle and I really enjoyed it. I think from memory I only did about 15 mins, as well as 5 mins on treadmill and some other weight training type exercise.

One of the girls from work is actually a qualified personal trainer and she has said she will help me formulate a plan that I can do from home and she will help me in any way I need. I am going to take her up on it.

I also met with my liver specialist this week, and she is wanting me to have an ultrasound and another liver biopsy, and all going well she wants to take me off the steroids as she thinks I might actually be in remission.

So it is a matter of watch this space.

Thursday, April 21, 2016

it's a start.....

Got on the treadmill this morning, and as expected it was extremely hard and I only managed 6 mins........really feeling a bit useless really.

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Thursday, November 13, 2014

Nov 2014

So I have not updated on here for an age. Alot has happened since March 2013, and life changing events. 

I am no where near my goal weight, after more health related issues. In June 2013, I had an Aortic Dissection and I have a 30 cm tear in my aorta. I spent 6 nights in ICU in Wellington, and I am on serious medication which in some ways has hindered my weight loss, BUT to be honest, it has more to do with my choices and my thought processes that it would just happen. If you want to check out more about Aortic Dissections....go to

At the end of the day, losing the regain is going to take determination, perseverance, honesty and hard work.  I know that I can achieve targets at work, so why can't I in this aspect of my life? I keep telling myself that it is just because I love food, but I know it is probably deeper than that, but do I want to delve into the depths of my mind to figure it out......not really. I would rather just accept that I have work to do, set those targets and get the job done. 

So that is what I am going to try to do. 

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Not giving up - just moving location

So, as you can see, I have not posted here for months. It is not that I am still working on things, it is just that I am out busy living life. Still struggling daily with choices and still battling both my liver disease and regain. 

I am going to follow the lead of  a couple of friends who have taking their support to Facebook. I too am doing this, as for me it is far easier to update and for people to provide feedback. It is a closed group so only members of the group can see the posts and I think I will be alot more open. 

I still aim to post on here occasionally, so even if you are not on FB you can still follow how things are going.

Healthwise, things have not been so great. The new meds we tried are failing and I am almost at my work bloods. I am scheduled to have another liver biopsy and most likely a change back to prednisone (steroid). 

If you want to join me on the FB page - go to and request to join. If we are not already friends on FB please send me a quick message telling me who you are and that you would like to be added to the group.

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Birthdays, Meals and a catch up.

So, here I am back from Conference, and time is whizzing by and it is getting close to Christmas. 

We have had a strange couple of months with both our jobs having some sort of review process. Mine has been going for about 2 years, and the latest they have told us is that our siet with have a continued "voice" presence, which basically means that yes it is likely that it will continue to have a call centre of some shape or form. So that is good. 

Si's has been a lot more uncertain as to if and what shape his job would look like, and that is not yet 100% certain, so I won't say alot. However, as part of the process Si has now started studying as well, good news is that with a qualification (in a couple of years) it will offer more job stability.

This years conference was down in Christchurch and it was great to hear from the Southern Obesity Services team and Kate Berridge from Counties-Manukau DHB. There were some things said that I didn't want to hear, but that is normal for me and I usually go away and process.

Most of the attendees at the 2012 WLS Conference

I had been needing to hear some reality as my weight got up to 132.8 kgs just before conference, and I was "being good" maybe 75% of the time, however my skin specialist is extremely unhappy with me for not following a Gluten Free diet like I am supposed to to help with the Dermatitis Herpetiformis, (I saw him the Thursday after the conference) and he put me back on another steroid to help (for a limited time), so back up to two oral steroids and a topical one.

I decided to get back to program and concentrate on portion sizes, protein and not drinking with my meals, and on the Weight Loss Surgery New Zealand facebook page, I put up my plan, which I was excited about, and then got a reminder from my Bariatric Nurse and good friend that I was still having a heap of carbs....sure they were Gluten Free, but still carbs...such as cereal, corn thins, fruit and some of the more starchy veges. She pointed out that for me, these are fine if I was wanting to maintain, but that these in reality were the things making me hungry. and why I was wanting to snack.

I had a bit of a pity party about it at the time, since it was such a big step from where I had been, but honestly, the next day I went back to my higher protein/low carb (virtually none) and I have been satisifed for hours upon hours. There have been a couple of moments of weakness (more mind than hunger) but I have recognised it and stopped and moved on. 

I thought I would show you the pics I have been taking of my meals,most of which are on portion controlled plates. 

Two Eggs Scrambled

Chop Chop Chicken Salad

Grilled Pork Chop with Zuchinni, mushrooms and Asparagus

2 Egg Omelet with Bacon and & Mushroom

Spicy Chilli with Sour Cream & Cheese (1 1/2 cups)

Bariatric Advantage Orange Creme Protein Shake

Rotisserie chicken salad

Big Breakfast

So, I will be weighing normally on Monday's but since I have posted all of this I may as well use today's weight as my weigh in. I was at 127.7 kgs. That is a drop of 2.2 kgs since Igot back on program. 

Monday, October 29, 2012

Torani Sugar Free Syrups

I am so excited, but I have found the New Zealand Importer of Torani Sugar Free Syrups.
A fabulous Company in Christchurch called Simply Syrups & More them, and whats more they have stockists around the country.

The following are the flavours you can get here in New Zealand:

Black Cherry                    
Brown Sugar Cinnamon
Caramel *
Chocolate Macadamia Nut
English Toffee
Irish Cream*

Now, why am I excited about this, well there is an amazing women called Michele Vicari (Eggface) who has some of the most amazing recipes, but most of them include the use of Torani Sugar Free Syrups and I have been unable to find an alternative. 

If you want to checkout some of her recipes you can here. Here is a couple of pics of her creations using Torani Syrups.

The other amazing thing is that David at Simply Syrups & More is keen to have a stand at this years conference which means that we get to try samples of the syrups............and looks like the is going to be one of the Conference Sponsors as well as a possible on going sponsor of Weightloss Surgery New Zealand.

Monday, October 15, 2012

Curves and measurements

So, here we are 4 weeks into my 9 week challenge to myself to lose 9 kgs, and I hit my heaviest weight yet. Over the last two weeks I have slipped on the eating big time. I actually hit 130 kgs on Friday, and it scared me senseless. 

So, on Friday I started doing something that both is exhausting but invigorating all at the same time.....back to Curves it is for me. The only work out that I truly enjoy.
I was shocked to see in just over a year of not going, that my measurements were all so much higher, and I have alot of work to do.....just to get back to where I was a year ago, let alone where I was at my lowest.

Taking it very much 1 day at a time.......this is not a race, but if I just go each day and do my 30 mins, I am adding in some vital exercise, coupled with following a good post op eating plan, will help me get back down to where I should be!!!!

I am going to put my measurements below to show you the comparison from July 2011 to now.......the only one I am not sure was right was my arms.....I think they under measured back in July 2011, with the loose skin it can be hard to measure it properly.

 So as you can see I am not a happy camper and I will be going to curves 4-5 days a week as well as riding my bike at least 1-2 time per week.  I also have to just get over myself and eat what I plan. So today I am going back to eating the small can of tuna on two corn thins, with a piece of fruit. It is boring, but hell, I need to get myself back on track and I have to remember I should be eating for fuel not for enjoyment. !!!!!!!!!

 I have also included a new shot of my blood tests. Even with the new drugs things are not going in the right direction. So will be discussion again with specialist. He mentioned that if this didn't work he would have to refer me to a specialist in Auckland. Just click on the picture to make it easier to read.

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Tuesday, October 2, 2012

On track (Mostly)

So I am mostly on track which is super cool and I knwo this post is a day I did lose 1.3 kgs this week, taking me down to 127.2 kgs. So I was happy about that. I am working on doing a program via a website in the USA called . It is for anyone who wants a personal trainer but not haev the huge cost per visit. Erin works out a program for you and then you keep in touch with her.

She is actually having a free trial for anyone who is interested at the moment.

The other cool thing happening is that Weightloss Surgery New Zealand is now an official trust and we are in the process of getting charitable status as well.

So, anyway off to have my lunch......tonight is going to be rushed as I am going to a support group that my surgeons team are running, it is the first night of Success Habits of Weight Loss Surgery Paitents. Will be interesting.

Still need tow ork on water intake, and a little of the snacking on cheese and crackers....but otherwise I am pleased with how things are going. Oh and to keep the tracking up. It is easy to miss out a day here an there.