Thursday, March 21, 2013

Not giving up - just moving location

So, as you can see, I have not posted here for months. It is not that I am still working on things, it is just that I am out busy living life. Still struggling daily with choices and still battling both my liver disease and regain. 

I am going to follow the lead of  a couple of friends who have taking their support to Facebook. I too am doing this, as for me it is far easier to update and for people to provide feedback. It is a closed group so only members of the group can see the posts and I think I will be alot more open. 

I still aim to post on here occasionally, so even if you are not on FB you can still follow how things are going.

Healthwise, things have not been so great. The new meds we tried are failing and I am almost at my work bloods. I am scheduled to have another liver biopsy and most likely a change back to prednisone (steroid). 


If you want to join me on the FB page - go to http://www.facebook.com/groups/523138597739042/ and request to join. If we are not already friends on FB please send me a quick message telling me who you are and that you would like to be added to the group.





Sunday, December 2, 2012

Birthdays, Meals and a catch up.

So, here I am back from Conference, and time is whizzing by and it is getting close to Christmas. 

We have had a strange couple of months with both our jobs having some sort of review process. Mine has been going for about 2 years, and the latest they have told us is that our siet with have a continued "voice" presence, which basically means that yes it is likely that it will continue to have a call centre of some shape or form. So that is good. 


Si's has been a lot more uncertain as to if and what shape his job would look like, and that is not yet 100% certain, so I won't say alot. However, as part of the process Si has now started studying as well, good news is that with a qualification (in a couple of years) it will offer more job stability.

This years conference was down in Christchurch and it was great to hear from the Southern Obesity Services team and Kate Berridge from Counties-Manukau DHB. There were some things said that I didn't want to hear, but that is normal for me and I usually go away and process.

Most of the attendees at the 2012 WLS Conference



I had been needing to hear some reality as my weight got up to 132.8 kgs just before conference, and I was "being good" maybe 75% of the time, however my skin specialist is extremely unhappy with me for not following a Gluten Free diet like I am supposed to to help with the Dermatitis Herpetiformis, (I saw him the Thursday after the conference) and he put me back on another steroid to help (for a limited time), so back up to two oral steroids and a topical one.

I decided to get back to program and concentrate on portion sizes, protein and not drinking with my meals, and on the Weight Loss Surgery New Zealand facebook page, I put up my plan, which I was excited about, and then got a reminder from my Bariatric Nurse and good friend that I was still having a heap of carbs....sure they were Gluten Free, but still carbs...such as cereal, corn thins, fruit and some of the more starchy veges. She pointed out that for me, these are fine if I was wanting to maintain, but that these in reality were the things making me hungry. and why I was wanting to snack.

I had a bit of a pity party about it at the time, since it was such a big step from where I had been, but honestly, the next day I went back to my higher protein/low carb (virtually none) and I have been satisifed for hours upon hours. There have been a couple of moments of weakness (more mind than hunger) but I have recognised it and stopped and moved on. 


I thought I would show you the pics I have been taking of my meals,most of which are on portion controlled plates. 

Two Eggs Scrambled

Chop Chop Chicken Salad

Grilled Pork Chop with Zuchinni, mushrooms and Asparagus

2 Egg Omelet with Bacon and & Mushroom

Spicy Chilli with Sour Cream & Cheese (1 1/2 cups)

Bariatric Advantage Orange Creme Protein Shake

Rotisserie chicken salad

Big Breakfast


So, I will be weighing normally on Monday's but since I have posted all of this I may as well use today's weight as my weigh in. I was at 127.7 kgs. That is a drop of 2.2 kgs since Igot back on program. 













Monday, October 29, 2012

Torani Sugar Free Syrups

I am so excited, but I have found the New Zealand Importer of Torani Sugar Free Syrups.
A fabulous Company in Christchurch called Simply Syrups & More them, and whats more they have stockists around the country.


The following are the flavours you can get here in New Zealand:



TORANI SUGAR FREE SYRUPS
Black Cherry                    
Brown Sugar Cinnamon
Caramel *
Chocolate*
Chocolate Macadamia Nut
Coconut
English Toffee
Gingerbread
Hazelnut*
Irish Cream*
Lemon
Raspberry
Strawberry
Vanilla*
*375ml



Now, why am I excited about this, well there is an amazing women called Michele Vicari (Eggface) who has some of the most amazing recipes, but most of them include the use of Torani Sugar Free Syrups and I have been unable to find an alternative. 

If you want to checkout some of her recipes you can here. Here is a couple of pics of her creations using Torani Syrups.





The other amazing thing is that David at Simply Syrups & More is keen to have a stand at this years conference which means that we get to try samples of the syrups............and looks like the is going to be one of the Conference Sponsors as well as a possible on going sponsor of Weightloss Surgery New Zealand.


Monday, October 15, 2012

Curves and measurements

So, here we are 4 weeks into my 9 week challenge to myself to lose 9 kgs, and I hit my heaviest weight yet. Over the last two weeks I have slipped on the eating big time. I actually hit 130 kgs on Friday, and it scared me senseless. 

So, on Friday I started doing something that both is exhausting but invigorating all at the same time.....back to Curves it is for me. The only work out that I truly enjoy.
I was shocked to see in just over a year of not going, that my measurements were all so much higher, and I have alot of work to do.....just to get back to where I was a year ago, let alone where I was at my lowest.

Taking it very much 1 day at a time.......this is not a race, but if I just go each day and do my 30 mins, I am adding in some vital exercise, coupled with following a good post op eating plan, will help me get back down to where I should be!!!!

I am going to put my measurements below to show you the comparison from July 2011 to now.......the only one I am not sure was right was my arms.....I think they under measured back in July 2011, with the loose skin it can be hard to measure it properly.

 So as you can see I am not a happy camper and I will be going to curves 4-5 days a week as well as riding my bike at least 1-2 time per week.  I also have to just get over myself and eat what I plan. So today I am going back to eating the small can of tuna on two corn thins, with a piece of fruit. It is boring, but hell, I need to get myself back on track and I have to remember I should be eating for fuel not for enjoyment. !!!!!!!!!

 I have also included a new shot of my blood tests. Even with the new drugs things are not going in the right direction. So will be discussion again with specialist. He mentioned that if this didn't work he would have to refer me to a specialist in Auckland. Just click on the picture to make it easier to read.

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Tuesday, October 2, 2012

On track (Mostly)


So I am mostly on track which is super cool and I knwo this post is a day lat.......so I did lose 1.3 kgs this week, taking me down to 127.2 kgs. So I was happy about that. I am working on doing a program via a website in the USA called www.fitandflourishing.com . It is for anyone who wants a personal trainer but not haev the huge cost per visit. Erin works out a program for you and then you keep in touch with her.

She is actually having a free trial for anyone who is interested at the moment.

The other cool thing happening is that Weightloss Surgery New Zealand is now an official trust and we are in the process of getting charitable status as well.

So, anyway off to have my lunch......tonight is going to be rushed as I am going to a support group that my surgeons team are running, it is the first night of Success Habits of Weight Loss Surgery Paitents. Will be interesting.

Still need tow ork on water intake, and a little of the snacking on cheese and crackers....but otherwise I am pleased with how things are going. Oh and to keep the tracking up. It is easy to miss out a day here an there.

Monday, September 24, 2012

So to keep me accountable

I am going to track via myfitness pal and for those of you who are interested you can go to the link here http://www.myfitnesspal.com/food/diary/journeytoaminime and if you want to view enter the password WLS2012.

I have tweaked things so I am eating under 1500 calories. ideally as a WLS patient I should be eating under 1200.


I was planning on the idea of just having meal replacements such as protein shakes and the optifast bars, but one really downside to these is that the optifast bars have wheat in them and I prefer the shakes with yoghurt and milk, which ups the calories alot. 

So tomorrow, I am going to do things a little differently. I will start with my yoghurt and cereal in the morning (which is gluten free) and does not have some of the other grains which should also be avoided. At lunch time I am going to make myself an omelette with mushroom, bacon, cheese and onion. 

Will see what happens - It certainly looks like I am going to eat way less calories and judging  by the amount of food, heaps fuller.

9 kgs in 8 weeks

So keeping it real - that week was a write off. The Monday went well and the rest of the week I completely ignored what I was going to do. 

The only good thing to come of starting to get a handle on the regain is that Simon has come on board and he won't let me put really bad things in the trolley. So, that means I don't have them in the house. Now to stop buying them at work.

So this week I am taking a different approach. I am going full detox on it. Protein shakes for breakfast and meal replacement bars for lunch. Let's kickstart this weightloss.
 

Actually if you think about it, it was exactly 5 years ago that I was starting this journey. 8 weeks before my surgery I went onto a pre op diet and lost 14.5 kgs in that time. I think maybe I just need to "reset" my pouch and break the carb addiction.

Here is a reminder of where I never ever want to be again



Monday, September 17, 2012

9 kgs in 9 weeks

So here we go, I need a bit of a challenge and to break up this battle up. It is going to be like a trilogy int he "Battle of Regain: Janine's Journey"

I looked back at what I did on my pre op diet - Hell I managed to lose 14.5 kgs in about 8 weeks without this operation and without being able to really exercise effectively. Okay sure I had two meal replacements, but as long as I plan, follow the pouch rules and limit my choices I should be able to create something similar. I am going to be pulling out my good old George Forman Grill and Steamer I think.  Time to clutter the bench again!!!

So my plan is to lose 9 kgs before my 40th birthday and get much closer to the 101 kgs I was before getting sick.  If I lose the 9 kgs in that time  it will mean that by my birthday I will be back to 119.5 kgs, and 1/3 of the way to getting back to where I was 3 years ago. The final weigh in will probably be just before I go away to the WLS Conference in Christchurch on Nov 16th rather than on the Monday. 

One of the things I think I had forgotten to mention on here was that I finally finished up the nasty horrible steroid prednisone on the weekend. A couple of weeks ago while I was having an iron infusion, I got a call from my specialist to tell me that the special authority funding had been approved for me to go onto a different steroid, that does not have as much of a weight gaining or appetite stimulant side effect. I am so hoping that it makes it a little easier...and that I finally won't feel hungry all of the time. 

Anyway - time to hit the shower and get off to work. But it starts now. 

Breakfast today was 

40 gms Vogels Gluten Free Cereal with 1 small tub of Meadowfresh yoghurt. 

Lunch will be a LSA wrap with ham and salad. 

Dinner is going to be grilled pork chop and steamed veges. 

Water is aiming for 1500 mls and exercise today is going to be a lunchtime walk. (I am on hr lunches)

Okay - Lunch time and the wind is blown and my throat is getting raspy from being back on the phones at work so not going to get in the walk today. Have managed 1 litre of water already today, and no snacking. I have had 1 cup of white tea with equal in it. Just about to have my lunch - It is the LSA wrap.....Will try and update with more later....will see what happens this evening after dinner as that is where I am finding the need for something sweet!!!





 

Friday, September 14, 2012

I read something today


That made me think about my decisions and my choices. It was on my friend Janie's facebook page. She is one of the lovely ladies I met in Las Vegas, and we shared some special moments together.




“You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It wont happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, ‘I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I’m moving on with my life.” ― Joel Osteen-
The other thing that has really made me think over the past week (while I have been home sick with the flu) is a Post op and a Doc webinar I logged into on Thursday. It was all about motivation, and at the end of the day, there is no motivation tree, or it is not just going to sneak up on me, I have to make a decision, and by seeing that through the motivation will grow and develop, especially as I see results.

I also had a look back to when I was at my lowest (just before getting sick) and what was I doing, I was blogging and doing you tube updates a lot more regularly than I am today, and that in itself motivated me to get out and do more. I have the resources to do this, including my bike (although with being sick I have not been on her for a while).

So what am I going to do.

  1. Get back to basics water, protein, low carb and correct portion size.
  2. Do some form of exercise every single day. 
  3. Have my supplements every single day.
  4. Get support - by using my blog and you tube and sharing what I am doing.
  5. Get some professional help to sort out some of my head issues. 
One of the other things that has played on my mind this week, is from a clip of Michelle Vicari from The World According to Eggface. She is extremely well known for her WLS recipes and to most of the WLS world she comes across as very confident. So it was a shock to hear that she still has issues with accepting who she is and how she relates to people. So that leds me to trying to get in touch with who I am, and what do I believe about myself. How do I relate to the world? I think I need to take my surgeons offer up to do some work on this area and to see the counselors.

Since I am going to be putting myself back out there in the public eye again, I would love to have some feedback, so please just post a message to help me along with number 4 - Get support. If you don't normally comment, please this time, comment (even if you don' t have a blogger account - just choose anonymous in the drop down box) or send me an email with your thoughts janine.hallewell@gmail.com

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Drinking whilst eating for a WLS person

The following video by Rob Portinga from Former Fat Dudes explains this so well. I had the pleasure of meeting Rob in Las Vegas at the Weight Loss Surgery Meet & Greet.