So to keep me accountable

I am going to track via myfitness pal and for those of you who are interested you can go to the link here http://www.myfitnesspal.com/food/diary/journeytoaminime and if you want to view enter the password WLS2012.

I have tweaked things so I am eating under 1500 calories. ideally as a WLS patient I should be eating under 1200.

I was planning on the idea of just having meal replacements such as protein shakes and the optifast bars, but one really downside to these is that the optifast bars have wheat in them and I prefer the shakes with yoghurt and milk, which ups the calories alot. 

So tomorrow, I am going to do things a little differently. I will start with my yoghurt and cereal in the morning (which is gluten free) and does not have some of the other grains which should also be avoided. At lunch time I am going to make myself an omelette with mushroom, bacon, cheese and onion. 

Will see what happens - It certainly looks like I am going to eat way less calories and judging  by the amount of food, heaps fuller.

9 kgs in 8 weeks

So keeping it real - that week was a write off. The Monday went well and the rest of the week I completely ignored what I was going to do. 

The only good thing to come of starting to get a handle on the regain is that Simon has come on board and he won't let me put really bad things in the trolley. So, that means I don't have them in the house. Now to stop buying them at work.

So this week I am taking a different approach. I am going full detox on it. Protein shakes for breakfast and meal replacement bars for lunch. Let's kickstart this weightloss.
 
Actually if you think about it, it was exactly 5 years ago that I was starting this journey. 8 weeks before my surgery I went onto a pre op diet and lost 14.5 kgs in that time. I think maybe I just need to "reset" my pouch and break the carb addiction.

Here is a reminder of where I never ever want to be again

9 kgs in 9 weeks

So here we go, I need a bit of a challenge and to break up this battle up. It is going to be like a trilogy int he "Battle of Regain: Janine's Journey"

I looked back at what I did on my pre op diet - Hell I managed to lose 14.5 kgs in about 8 weeks without this operation and without being able to really exercise effectively. Okay sure I had two meal replacements, but as long as I plan, follow the pouch rules and limit my choices I should be able to create something similar. I am going to be pulling out my good old George Forman Grill and Steamer I think.  Time to clutter the bench again!!!

So my plan is to lose 9 kgs before my 40th birthday and get much closer to the 101 kgs I was before getting sick.  If I lose the 9 kgs in that time  it will mean that by my birthday I will be back to 119.5 kgs, and 1/3 of the way to getting back to where I was 3 years ago. The final weigh in will probably be just before I go away to the WLS Conference in Christchurch on Nov 16th rather than on the Monday. 

One of the things I think I had forgotten to mention on here was that I finally finished up the nasty horrible steroid prednisone on the weekend. A couple of weeks ago while I was having an iron infusion, I got a call from my specialist to tell me that the special authority funding had been approved for me to go onto a different steroid, that does not have as much of a weight gaining or appetite stimulant side effect. I am so hoping that it makes it a little easier...and that I finally won't feel hungry all of the time. 

Anyway - time to hit the shower and get off to work. But it starts now. 

Breakfast today was 

40 gms Vogels Gluten Free Cereal with 1 small tub of Meadowfresh yoghurt. 

Lunch will be a LSA wrap with ham and salad. 

Dinner is going to be grilled pork chop and steamed veges. 

Water is aiming for 1500 mls and exercise today is going to be a lunchtime walk. (I am on hr lunches)

Okay - Lunch time and the wind is blown and my throat is getting raspy from being back on the phones at work so not going to get in the walk today. Have managed 1 litre of water already today, and no snacking. I have had 1 cup of white tea with equal in it. Just about to have my lunch - It is the LSA wrap.....Will try and update with more later....will see what happens this evening after dinner as that is where I am finding the need for something sweet!!!





 

I read something today

That made me think about my decisions and my choices. It was on my friend Janie's facebook page. She is one of the lovely ladies I met in Las Vegas, and we shared some special moments together.

“You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It wont happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, ‘I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I’m moving on with my life.” ― Joel Osteen-

The other thing that has really made me think over the past week (while I have been home sick with the flu) is a Post op and a Doc webinar I logged into on Thursday. It was all about motivation, and at the end of the day, there is no motivation tree, or it is not just going to sneak up on me, I have to make a decision, and by seeing that through the motivation will grow and develop, especially as I see results.

I also had a look back to when I was at my lowest (just before getting sick) and what was I doing, I was blogging and doing you tube updates a lot more regularly than I am today, and that in itself motivated me to get out and do more. I have the resources to do this, including my bike (although with being sick I have not been on her for a while).

So what am I going to do.

1. Get back to basics water, protein, low carb and correct portion size.
2. Do some form of exercise every single day. 
3. Have my supplements every single day.
4. Get support - by using my blog and you tube and sharing what I am doing.
5. Get some professional help to sort out some of my head issues. 

One of the other things that has played on my mind this week, is from a clip of Michelle Vicari from The World According to Eggface. She is extremely well known for her WLS recipes and to most of the WLS world she comes across as very confident. So it was a shock to hear that she still has issues with accepting who she is and how she relates to people. So that leds me to trying to get in touch with who I am, and what do I believe about myself. How do I relate to the world? I think I need to take my surgeons offer up to do some work on this area and to see the counselors.

Since I am going to be putting myself back out there in the public eye again, I would love to have some feedback, so please just post a message to help me along with number 4 - Get support. If you don't normally comment, please this time, comment (even if you don' t have a blogger account - just choose anonymous in the drop down box) or send me an email with your thoughts janine.hallewell@gmail.com