Sunday, January 25, 2009


Do you know something? I hate this blog!!! I hate how I feel having to come up with something to update. I am not naturally gifed in written material and I always find it a struggle.

Don't get me wrong, I love reading other peoples, You guys write so well, but I also find it hard to comment, as the comments come out all wrong, and so often people have got the wrong end of the stick, but if I had spoken to them and shared the same sentiment, they would have understood my tone and where I was coming from.

It has been something that I have been thinking about the last couple of days after someone commented on how much they hate the phone......I am on the otherhand love it. And I love getting together with people and chatting. I went to my WLS meeting in Palmerston North today, and it was great. I just love the conversation buzzing around, sharing ideas seeing the laughter in peoples eyes and hearing it in their voice. I can't do that here, I can't express myself the way I need to.

I think that the internet is a great tool, and without it I would be a bit lost, But I also miss that I no longer catch up with friends for a coffee, or have 30 min phone conversations with girlfriends.....actually since my friend Kathy died about 5 years ago I can quite honestly say I have not had a girlfriend that I have been able to confide in about most things...and how do I meet one....?? It is damn hard with modern technology living in a small rural town. Everyone just emails or txt's these days and I hate it. I hate text message, I find them rude and unpersonal, but at Christmas I still sent out a bulk message to those on my phonebook. I used to have a address book, now I just have a cellphone.

So pretty much the blog has come to and end, I might occasionaly post the odd pic or two, but that is it. I am not going to update for the sake of updating, struggling for something that I think other people might want to read.

Thanks for your support throughout this journey, if you want to keep in touch, then feel free to drop me and email (I am useless at replying) or better yet, ring me. Happy to leave my cell phone for those who want to call - I can give you a home number after you have told me who you are. New Zealand Telecom phone - 027 334 6748.


  1. Well I think that you do have a gift! Also you are going through such a massive change, have you thought of going private, that way you are helping others and have a record of how you are doing. Great for YOU to look back on.

    I agree that "talking" via internet, text messages, emails etc is not the same as pioking up a phone. Something us older ones probably find harder to deal with, as you say so unpersonal. Cell phones now are used quite often as the main way to "talk".

    Sad you feel you are going to pretty much end the blog. Will definately keep in contact.

    Coffees? well now that the holidays are over we should do the odd Sat morning catch up with the other Palmy women.

  2. Oh boo, I love your mine it is written from your feelings mine is not always perfect it is me expressing me...honest and raw at some times...I will miss you :( boo hoo

  3. I really like your blog.

    Like you, I'm always not so good at commenting, mainly because at time life gets away from me and I suddenly rfealise it's been a couple of days since I've visited the blogs I read.

    I just wanted to add... that you are an inspration.

  4. You are doing so well and I can understand that sometimes 'life' gets in the way of our best intentions. Also I guess blog writing is hard as like you say you can't see body language or facial expressions and sometimes we get mixed up messages. I know I do and am a 'long liner' of putting not one, but both feet in it. LOL. Hopefully you are having a good week. Take care and look after #1.....that is you :)

  5. Am sorry to hear that you are stopping your blog and will still keep in touch (as slack as I am). I used to love the phone... well still do but so hard when a 2yr old wants your attention during the day (weekends) and then in the evenings, it is full on washing, dishes, lunches etc until about 9pm and I don't like late calls! But will make a big effort to stay in touch... but I can relate to what you are saying about not having the gift of blogging as I feel like that too!
    Take care :)

  6. I am so sorry to hear your giving it away....I was just starting to catch up on your journey and I must say it has been very inspirational.
    A lot of us will miss you and your journey.